Reject

Have you ever felt lonely in a crowded room
Everyone's laughing, talking, mingling,
The room is bright and yet you see only gloom
And in your ear the endless silence ringing.

Have you ever felt left out
Of a circle of smiling friends,
As they make plans without a doubt
Not inviting you, not even an apology to make amends.

Have you ever felt not good enough
Like you were not pretty, thin, or buff
That your friendship didn't count
They only wanted someone they could flaunt.

Have you ever felt hurt
More painful than the deepest cut,
When someone you love pushes you away
Even though they will need you once again, some day.

Have you ever felt abandoned
Not loved or cared for, instead only scorned,
Forgotten in lieu
Of someone new.

Have you ever felt replaced
When they replace you with another face,
What did your friendship mean
Or was this the worst yet to be seen.

Have you ever felt betrayed
Like what happened to Robb and Catelyn, at the hands of the Freys,
To be treated as family only to be stabbed in the back
Those types of people aren't worth jack.

Have you ever felt rejected
Like your own father won't accept you
Like Tyrion his who life, dejected,
Discriminated like a diseased ridden ewe.

It's good to know
These are just feelings
A chemical reaction that may pass.
It's sad to feel, however,
For these are people's feelings,
Of which we should be mindful of, or peace,
is the ultimate goal.



Breathe



Tribute to Tyrion and Penny.

Tranquil Turmoil

I want to be happy -
I smile.

I feel the pain, I feel sadness-
Sorrow

You guide me through life -
I follow.

Blind leading the blind
You are only trying to be kind
Do me a favor, Leave me alone
I will surely find my own way...

...One day,
Might not be today.

I have nothing else to say.


I want to be free-
Be free.

I feel constrained-
Society.

I resent, repent, remorse, remember-
the past.

You think you know me
Do you even know you?
Do me a favor, leave me alone
I will find me, Go find you...

...One day,
Might not be today.
I have nothing else to say.

The darkness envelopes me-
Acceptance.

The light will shine once again-
Anticipation..

Lose the complacency, shed the passivity-
Fight.

It's my life and I will do as I please
We don't have to go separate ways but

Do me a favor, leave me alone
We can agree to disagree and be at peace...

...One day,
Might not be today.
I have nothing else to say.

Copyright Conscious Culture

Copyright Conscious Culture
By Piyali Banerjie
"Raise your vibration"

Meditation On My Mind

As well as meditating, I am also giving up alcohol for so many reasons.

I don't consider myself an alcoholic, but I do think I do have a problem - self medicating.

Many of us use alcohol, yes we enjoy it for the first few sips, but then don't know when to stop, right?

Whatever.

I'm almost 90 days sober, my boyfriend has been an awesome help in the process, however lately I've been thirsty. Sometimes I feel the thirst out of the need to relax, calm my nerves, or just because all my friends are doing it. The cool kids are doing it. I'm not a "cool kid" anymore cause being sober is not cool.

It's so difficult to not judge them, or not let me imagining them judging me affect me. It's twisted really. Try being sober for 90 days, and your brain will get clear, and sometimes even over analyze? Or maybe it's because I don't have anything to placate my hormones anymore. There is a definite change in body, mind and soul.

I ask for courage, from the unknown, for it is sometimes so hard to say no. Its just a drink right? Its legal. I don't have a problem...

Hmm so much of life to contemplate with those few sentences, and when I look at why i am changing my self for all the above questions, I begin applying it to others, and I see so many people who have problems! And I feel - If I am fixing myself why shouldn't they?

It's not easy.
The first four lines of the serenity prayer have been so helpful to meditate on.

"____, grant me the Serenity
To accept the things I cannot change...
Courage to change the things I can,
And Wisdom to know the difference."

Meditation, and the prayer, help me remove the negative feelings which arise sometimes out of being sober, or observing other people drinking. I see myself counting drinks others have, but then I breathe, close my eyes, or just smile, and think to myself. I am good with the way I am. I am strong. I am a loving caring person. Reach out and make sure everyone gets home safe.

Just like in climbing, we get rid of the fears, panic. I try to condition myself mentally, to love, accept, and even though I see clearly now, understand and accept myself, before judging others.

Climb to Brighter Heights

Just when you think you've hit rock bottom, things will start looking up (look up to the light); and when things start looking up, it gets your spirits high; when your spirits get high and with a little bit of effort and that renewed positive attitude - more good things will start happening to you. And then just like the saying goes - when it rains, it pours!!
Climb to positivity - it isn't always easy but so worth the honest effort! Try it today!
(I really tried making this with all the right "sayings")

 

 

Changes Occur... Like Seasons

So I feel like it has been ages since I wrote a blog.
It is almost fall.
Things have changed in my life.
I have changed my life.
I decided to change.
Then everything changed.
However I realized it is a lot of hard work.
Exhausting.

It takes persistence. Determination. Perseverance.
Now i realize it takes will. courage and that desire to follow through.

I am tired. However, I will not quit.

I will be like "the little train that could".
"I-think-I-can. I-think-I-can. I-think-I-can"
and if i pursue and keep at it and chug chug chug all the way up the mountain, one day I will be saying "I-thought-I-could. I-thought-I-could"
and "I-knew-I-could" and I will use that power to keep climbing higher hills.

If we give up at hill one, then we are stuck in the valley and never see the view from the summit. The lovely panorama. The mind blowing, eye opening vista that keeps us climbing up more mountains.

So keep climbing, and don't stop. Don't settle for the valley, but enjoy the journeys,experience the seasons and views. It's all one. Don't stop at one place. Accept the change and seek for new.


Find time to relax - breathe - smile!

<3 <3 <3

I'm starting with the person in Mirror

So the world is in shits... but the only way to make it a better place, is just as Michael Jackson sang it in the "man in the mirror". You have to start with yourself.

So my dear friend Chris once told me to watch this movie called "The Secret" this was when it first came out and wasn't too big. Then the book came out and someone told me to read the book. Then many people told me to read the book.

Finally I began reading it this year after I returned from India. I felt very very hopeless, and nothing was looking up, especially with the Economy in the doldrums and all.

I began practising the first part of the book: Ask the Universe. Visualize. Positivity. and have NO DOUBT.

and that's when it began. I realized I had used the secret in the past as well. We have all used the secret and have not realised that we used it.

Read the book. and share your stories. Will add more to this blog in the future.