Rise

Struggles:

Sometimes just to get out of bed in the morning
To smile when the sky is grey
The driver that cuts in front - steer away from frowning
To talk when you have nothing nice to say.

To love when anger envelopes your being
To find compassion when you scrape through the day
Find the light when darkness is all you are seeing
Fighting the winter blues even though it is almost May.

Being motivated even when there is so much to do
To discipline yourself against all temptations
To run, to move, exercise and to even just get up and go
Patience for all those slow moving situations.

To find beauty in the ugliness
To taste the sweet in the most bitter
To remember our pureness
To turn a bad moment into something better.

To spare your loved ones the brunt of frustrations
To find a peace amongst the chaos
Feel warmth among cold companions
Within the millions to find the "us".

Rise:

We will overcome these and be higher souls
We will be our own warriors
Sing louder than the bell tolls
Breaking all our barriers.


We will strive to day to be better than yesterday
Love endlessly
To be warm and shine: be a brighter ray
Smile continuously.

Smile - For everyday is a new day

Remember -The beauty of life itself

Breathe.

(I wrote this because I was having a hard time being motivated, and a colleague said he had a hard time getting the day started, a friend having a hard time getting out of bed and getting on with life, a friend letting go of the old and embracing the new... Let's remember we struggle with little things everyday but need to overcome them to be stronger and the higher person. Some of our struggles might be bigger than petty everyday ones, but we have to rise above be our own warriors!)

Utterly Grateful

I had a breakdown recently, while talking to my sister on the phone. We live, make mistakes, worry and learn. This time I lost my handle on my stress management. My sister has been helping me, although younger, she does have some sweet sort of wisdom and understanding in her, a simplistic approach to solving problems and dealing with people, attitudes and relationships. With her help and the support of my loved ones i am able to cope, and get back on track.

In the process my sister got me to join her "gratitude list" where we all list what we are grateful for each day. This is just my list from today:

Today I am Grateful for:

My Life
The ability to analyze
Ability to prioritize
Ability to bare great responsibility for so many, yet so few...
Stress for it keeps me on my toes and reminds me to want to eventually achieve homeostasis
The actions of others that lead me to be wiser yet guarded

My sister for letting me share my joys and sorrows ... for being my light in the night, yet shinning just right!

Health and my ability to take control and make myself well

My friends that support me and are reliable (Shelby, Anna, Ryan, Rohitesh, Deana, Keith, Mun, Becks, Mandy...)

My humble abode that truly serves as my melting ground

The extensive support and encouragement I get from my parents, uncle, sister

My wonderful boyfriend for being loving, understanding, helpful but most of all being such a solace and supportive

Alice for sending me sweet emails
Lingling for the Chinese green tea
Abby for protecting me from the big bad wolves, and teaching me
Delbert for being such an awesome plant manager and working with me
Team Work
Cooperation
Motivated attitudes from fellow employees
Singing to people on their voice-mails
Letting go!

This gratitude list for helping me count my blessings even though it seems so dark for so long. I see the light in my life, and nurture the tiny flame!

The NEWS

Some believe that the word NEWS came about because of the acronym for North East West South
Today it means the same thing - current events from the North, East, West and South of any place.
It also means that if there is a big buzz on the news, that there's probably something bad happening... to someone, somewhere or something. We like to watch the news to stay informed about good things and bad, but mostly its bad - stock market, economy, politicians, country against country, who lost what game, who shot who, murder, rape, suicide, accidents... the happy things if any, are so whimsical that not everyone is stirred by it. The News is so peculiar in that way. The News is also owned by individuals with their own agendas, so I believe, no news is unbiased. In fact that's why I enjoy the shows that make fun of The News (although it took me a while to find the humor in such serious issues) because in the end it's all a matter of perspective. The News can be disheartening or uplifting at times, in example when a country gets freedom, or something successful happened somewhere (ie. a safe rocket launch), or when an endangered species in a zoo gives birth, or your home team won a game! Those moments are lovely. Then there are those moments that are unforgettable, ie. when Columbia Crashed, When 911 happened, when the tsunami hit India, when the tsunami hit Japan, when Egypt got freedom... etc. Some crazy stuff! The News just reflects how crazy we get as we progress in the years, or are we becoming more developed?
Most of the time weather it is local (Ohio) or world news, it is just painful to watch- the suffering, the violence, the pain, and the stupidity, intolerance, hate... Other than the weather, that might be the best part to the whole "News" Or in case of paper it might be the comic strip section... Radio- might be the music section, internet might be the Movie reviews... It is all NEWS!!

To me: The day "The News" doesn't make me cry or bring me close to tears, will be a great day! We will have learned to live in peace, to love each other despite differences, to help and give jobs, take care of the planet and the people; ... who knows!

Let's stay positive and be conscious of making the NEWS in our lives a good one for those around us!

Breathe!

Teenager was shot dead while talking to his girlfriend near his house!

New species of frog found in NY!

Children Suffer from strange nodding disease! :-/

(Seizures?)

Witnesses of a massacre in a village

Politics at its worst!

Study shows digital devices make us read more NEWS!

fUTURE mE!

miklos: YAY!

  HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

  are you drunk? 

 me: no silly! 

miklos: awwww

  but that's the whole point of birthdays

  did you take the day off? 

me: my bf got me cake flavored vodka

  no am at work

  shud i have taken the day off? 

 miklos: im not sure... 

 me: would you have taken the day off? 

 miklos: probably not

  i actually am taking my birthday off

b/c i'm flying that day...

  so i'm waking up at like 4 am...

  which i guess.... isn't a great birthday present

  but whatever

  future me will deal with it 

me: :)

  future me will deal with it!

  hahahaha 

miklos: he gets pissed at past me constantly...

CATHARSIS

The purging of emotion.

Bottled up deep inside

though you have a smile

there is so much to hide

much to beguile.

Passion, Anger, Sorrow and Suffering

Frustrations, Anguish, Confusion, and Repression

Hurt, Pain, Rage a feeling of Chocking

Oppression, Conceal, Suppression....

A moment comes when we decide to let

the emotions that we've buried inside

to burst out, to jet

to flow and exit with the receding tide.

If the emotions make us a bubble,

or a balloon - a small nudge or snip

in the form of an external thrust to hell

can make us snap and pop.

The emotional purge can be beautiful

Sometimes it can be ugly

It can be dangerous to some and harmful

Yet it needs to be done, most definitely.

 Ophelia - Hamlet