Monday, May 20, 2013

Today is a Gift, That's Why it is Called Present

Sometimes the now is very difficult. Especially when things bring you down, stressed, and eventually in the murky, grimy, dark depths of depression. It is difficult to free oneself from the oily greasy gook that bind our feathers of self worth together, joy and bravery, just like a bird caught in an oil spill. We are scared to emerge from that hole when finally free, because we are scared of being judged, or pushed back down there. Often it happens, over and over again, until one stops even trying to come out, and lives with the pessimism that there will be no way out.

People have told me about the book called "The Secret". I read it, I tried it, it works! However its very tricky, and hard to have that type of faith. Often people have faith through religion. The idea of God, helps many people in a lot of situations, and many out of these dark depressions. But how do you help someone, who is a good person, who has lost faith, who knows God can't love them because they can't even find a single reason to love themselves? The community aspect behind various religions helps people by bringing them together on the basis of faith, unity and helping each other. Humans have an inherent need to "belong", and it's ok, it's very hard to build the logic to fight it and to solo through life. Religion/ faith gives one strength to solo through life in someways as well, in example Sanyasis, Hrishis, ascetics etc. All religions preach a positivity, preach of a forgiving loving parental type God, which can help many through times of darkness, and crisis. Sometimes it helps for a while, but reality sets in again. Its almost like a different type of AA program.

AA I find is very effective when a person entrusts themselves into it. I have seen AA save lives, and change people for the better, more than any therapy, and medication could do. How? Same principle - community, faith, faith in self, sharing, accountability, caring. It has helped people out from the darkest, deathly of places, and kept them out, and in turn helped other people out too.

Right now I stand at cross roads in life. The traffic is fast paced, and I am standing in the center median of a 6 way intersection. Which way do I go? Each road vanishes into the darkness, the horns are blaring, the lights are changing, the vehicles flashing by me, almost tipping me over. I have nothing to hold onto, there is no map to help me, all I have is my breath, my being and my mind.

There's a lot going on without the world having to be in  the constant state of change, turmoil and trepidation. There is beauty that helps us day to day, like the beautiful bird in the tree, but when things spiral out of control, one only notices the bird poop, the annoying noisy neighbors, the decrepit nature of the world and the nastiness of human against human. Where did the love go? Where did "God" go?

Instead of worrying about them,  those people, her, and him, and the disgusting things people can do to one another, the mean things people do to me... I focus on NOW. My sis told me how a book called 'Be Here Now" by Ram Dass, has changed her life. She stops focusing on negatives, but on positives, especially other people. See once we even let out minds go to the dirty side, everything else gets polluted. So it's good to notice it, keep your side clean and carry on!

It's ok to cry and let the tears go, let them cleanse your being from the depression. Crying helps the body soul and mind let go of the depression you are sunken in. Let it out, and let it go. Then be in the now and breathe in and out. Notice how you feel.

Read: Ram Dass "Be Here Now"
Listen to: Huun-Huur-Tu (also on spotify)

 “It is important to expect nothing, to take every experience, including the negative ones, as merely steps on the path, and to proceed.”
― Ram Dass

“The heart surrenders everything to the moment. The mind judges and holds back.”
― Ram Dass




Breathe

Pic. Courtesy Conscious Culture


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