Crush

He looked at me and smiled, in a flirty way. I looked away, because I didn't know him, and I didn't do "flirting". He was just a guy in the crowd and I was there to watch my friend's show. I hung out with my sister and her friends waiting for the band we knew to go on. and this guy looked at me a few times. He was cute, even handsome, despite his bizarre outfit. My friend's band went on, and they played well, I rocked out. I did not know the main band playing but I stayed around to watch. Lo and behold, the flirty guy got on stage. He made eye contact several times, and I felt like an idiot. Apparently they were pretty big in Cleveland, for their day.

Local band, but a huge local fan following. I met him later thanks to my friend and his band. I was wary but he was cute, especially the smile. Connection, and then I was communicating with him every now and then. However I slowly found out more about him, and he seemed like the kind of guy who likes to have fun, but never get serious. Or why would he want to get serious with me?

He had a lip piercing, he was tall and handsome and played the bass guitar damn well. I once went to his concert and I can swear we almost kissed, but I think I had gone with someone else (who I did not want to be there with).

I realized after a while that I should keep my distance, it's like was like all the fatty sugary foods, tempting a heart patient. Luckily he left the country to go teach English, and whenever he visited I had this urge to go throw everything away, just to have that one kiss, or night. However I wouldn't be able to deal with just that. So tempting though. However I would want more than that. Why should I settle to be that random one girl, I was better than that. I deserved someone who could see how "Awesome" I was. He would never see that. I made sure we stayed friends, and that's just that. I think I've known him longer than any of those girls who just enjoyed sex with him for one night.

:-)

I'm happy with myself for my decisions.