summer commences

Summer is here. what we've all been waiting for, and then everyone starts complaining once again. We cant and never will control weather, except by making it crazier with whatever it is we do... adding to Greenhouse gases and bla bla! i can pull out journals, text books, etc of research on this stuff.
People love complaining in general, wah wah whine cheese whine whine waah! life is full of ups and downs and it is good to have someone to share this with.
I always had this perspective that this imperfect life is so perfect, sometimes the stress get to ya though. it really does.

*sigh*

my biggest bane = people.

ugh... now i would like to quote Mr. Smith from the Matrix on what he thought humans were. Except if those computers were so great what did they do with the animals?

Love: animals and nature...

OE Wilson coined the term Biophilia, and most humans have the natural affinity to nature.

however this guy at work today started screaming like a girl and squashed a poor spider to death.

People!!!!!

Summer: summer love... some heat, some rain, some dead grass, love it enjoy it... for it will be freezing cold again in a few months... at least here in ohio it will.

Tropics: its always hot there. I lived there, and i will say... I love the tropics... but then again being a geographer i love every place, for its uniqueness!

rant completed.

*bows out*

5 months into 2011

We live we learn.

And it's not getting much easier at all. It has been very difficult for a while now, however difficulty is relative to what a person can handle. I am sure I am better off, I have so much to be grateful for. However the hurdles I face are difficult for me.

I pace myself. I breathe. I focus.

I thought this year would be different and it has been. I am growing. Making decisions trying to figure out myself? I think sometimes people go off on a physical journey, however I do not have the money or time to. Turns out its tougher than it seems. It is a learning process.

I have been learning from my sister, a wonderful man, my uncle and my parents. They are close to me right now. They help me along my way.

Patience. Insight. Acceptance.

I am learning to love myself, and be patient with others. Accept my self with all my flaws and those around me.

Love. Being Present. Trust.

To treat those around me with love. No matter if they are hurting me. I have understood its their own deal that they are being mean. As long as I keep my act, and the entire side of my road clean. I am good. Always treat everyone with love. It seems to work.

I am always worried about the future, or hung up about the past. However to be present and live in the NOW is helping so much. I can enjoy the people I am with. It is doubly joyous for all involved.

Trust is the hardest hurdle of all. I need to trust the people in my life and the ones I love. I need to trust myself.

All these things I work on... forget money, its just a part of this whole system thing we live in. Just getting the basics right, is something most people do not do these days.

Tolerance.

So many people have such low tolerances in regards to so many things. They hurt each other. It is not even necessary.

Meditation.

Every morning for at least 5 minutes. It has helped me this past one week to be more productive and calm at work, although the stress levels are rising, there is calm within me.

Change.

Change is something we must always be ready for. Change is the only constant constant. However it is the biggest variable! Accept it! Go with it... or be left behind.

Breathing, enjoying every single bit of this life, and staying positive.
I am strong. I will do whatever it is I need to do and want to do!

OM!

DOST - AMIGO - FRIEND

I have many different types of friends: friends who are the "good time charlie" sort, friends I never see but when we do its like no time or space has passed between us, friends who are dependable, flaky friends, shady friends, frenemies, childhood friends who have that ever lasting bond, friends from childhood, acquaintances, people I know, sisterly friends, brotherly friends, friends who are no longer friends, friends who were friends but friends no more, internet friends, my closest dearest bestie friends wherever they are, seasonal friends, work friends, college and grad school friends ...







... in the end i love them all.


we are all one.



(disclaimer: however it is only human to feel intense emotions at some point in the other.)

B R E A T H E

Living on my own!

Its a bout time I finally moved out of my parents home. Yes finances will be tight, but I needed this. There is a difference between being all sheltered and waiting for the good thing to come by, than making your own effort. I love my parents deeply, but I was not growing. I really needed to do it my way, spread my wings, fly, leave the nest...
So, yes, I now have my very own apartment... two bedrooms, one bath, a tiny kitchen and a nice big dinning/living room. It is my space, my time.

So far its been nice having friends, and family support, however there are moments when i feel utter loneliness, which is natural. I wish i had a pet at that point. However it is a natural thing and I must face that emotion.

I can keep my thoughts to myself, and enjoy the silence: giving me time to write!

Also can't wait to be more active, and be outdoors in the nature soon in spring, do all the things I didn't have time for in the past. Will always keep family in my and heart though.

<3
 Sleepy

To blog or not to blog

Ok honestly I love blogging, and I don't blog half as much as I want to, but then again its hard to stay motivated as a writer because I don't get half as much feedback as I would like to receive. Furthermore blogger, as much as I love google, does not fulfill my needs... Suggestions?
Different blogging sites? Anything?

Good news is, I moved out of my parents home, now I may write more.