I remember last New Years Eve like yesterday, and then again, it seems like a long time ago. My very dear friend Polloy came to visit me. It was a very fun time. I was playing a lot of Lord of the Rings online at that time, to keep my mind off things such as the severe economic depression sweeping the country. My grand parents were visiting, and my sister left to New York City for grad school. The trip to New York brought many issues to the surface, and I felt like something was not right. Before which I broke up with my boyfriend, it crushed me, but I needed to make some changes, there were compatibility and communication issues. I needed to be Priyanka, I met people a long the way who grew close to my heart, as well as I started growing out of my little girl shoes. I wanted to be my own person. I want to be my own person. There is the image or Priyanka I want to be (Ideal) and then there is real life. Then there is the person I don't want to be. These are clear in my head. They are for me only, and I want to attain this on my own.
(I don't like how this blog doesn't work properly sometimes, it's very glitchy, even MS word is better)
As Elphaba said in Wicked (Defying Gravity), "Too long I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost. If that's love it comes at much too high a cost." So I wanted to just be, love, and let it go. Be free.
I went to Mexico. It was good, I'd go back again, a lovely country. It felt like India (as a compliment), and I almost felt at home. We had a lot of awesome yoga going the whole year until a very busy summer began. Lots of visitors, it was nice, but exhausting. I just wanted one weekend to myself. Then again I live at home, so forget about a lone time.
The World Cup and The Grand Slams came around! How I love tennis and football! I will say the day of the final for the FIFA World Cup was very awesome! The game was almost moot, so I went for a bike ride. Fall came around and I worked hard, and became more determined to make bigger life changes, also realized more how I needed to assert myself as my own person. I went camping in West Virginia, it was lovely as usual, and a good change from the familiar Ohio-ness. I also began ballroom dancing which helped me so much, and I began finding different facets of this Priyanka person, and I keep growing - On my own, inwardly and outwardly.
For Halloween I was Elphaba, and then i dressed up as a Ravenclaw student. If I could I would cosplay in character everyday! Must be the love of art, creativity and theatre in me... I want to develop on this facet of me more this year. I got a new tattoo, learned how to play Texas hold 'em, and enjoyed Turducken (thanks to Anna), and saw some awesome bands play this year! I loved watching the real professional dancers dance at the Ohio Star Ball. I was star struck, and realized some sick feminine side of me that likes high heels, skirts and shiny things.
I met a awesome guy and began developing a nice relationship with him - enjoying the communication, the clarity, and perhaps simplicity, however it is almost as if I am introspecting more and being more aware of how I am. I like that kind of metacognition. I am very happy.
I met a bunch of new people, and also reunited with my very close friend Mandy and her family for new years. It was very much delayed and much needed. Last year was spent with a new friend and this with an old friend. I also had some good times with my friends Renee, Shelby, Amy (I miss yoga with you), Michelle, Miles (my animal lover/adventurer friend), Steve, Ramon, Nidia, Erin (my beautiful and loving friend), Donnie (always wierd friendly like), Chris (maverick the Ace), Becky (love you!), Oye Kakke (hey sexy), K Dawg (Whatever), Phil (The Pastros Captain, I love your fb comments to me), My little Sister (Peeeeeeg), Mandy, My Uncle Danny, Ryan, Deepti (I like our emails, and am glad you're still in my life!)... (if I forgot you, you know you mean a lot to me). I have said good bye to those who have hurt me, and realized although I do love them very much, the pain they cause me is far too much for me to contact them.
I love my family dearly, and I love my friends even more. For family is that which we are born with, however friends are people we pick ourselves. My friends might not be famous, rich, or rocket scientists, but what matters most is that they are loyal, steadfast, reliable, trustworthy, and most of all TRUE TO THEMSELVES.
Holiday season comes around, and I am burnt out. I want peace and quiet. A get away to South/ Central America would be great. However some unavoidable family issues come up, and it sucked the life out of me. Here I am drained, but I know that this can only make me stronger. Yes I will kick ass this year, or at least write more and travel more despite rising gas prices. After the last few years things can only get better.
Love and Sunshine!!!!
~Pree~
Mandy and I on NYE in Grand Rapids, Mi.
